23 week worries

I think I'm starting to near the end of the "honeymoon phase" of pregnancy, or whatever they call the reprieve that the second trimester brings. I'm used to waking up all hours of the night to pee, but now I also wake up because of how uncomfortable the weight of my boobs and belly are on my back! I've also begun to get mild leg cramps if I don't move around a lot in a day. I'm still trying to go to the gym 3-4 times a week for some cardio. I have light cramping afterwords, but the rest of my body loves the workout. I want to clarify that I'm not complaining at all. I try to be grateful for every symptom, ache, pain, and side effect I get as I know how blessed I am to be where I'm at. I love feeling his little kicks, although they are progressively getting stronger and stronger as he gets bigger muscles! This time is just flying by. We've already registered for baby things and we will be buying all of our furniture next month. I've held off for so long on buying anything. I figure if I buy the furniture in my third trimester, that will be safe enough. I'm just so dang superstitious. We literally have nothing bought for our baby boy. Well, I have a couple of newborn pajamas...and that's IT. People keep asking if we've started to get the nursery stocked with everything we need. Um, how about, have we even started to decorate and construct the nursery? My amazing husband will be starting that up soon, he's just been so busy with work lately, it's so hard to find the time. I have faith it will get done....I have to!

I'm just continuing to read all my baby and pregnancy book and trying not to freak out too much. Lately I've been having all of these mini moments of panic in where I realize that I have no idea what I'm doing and that I'm going to be an awful mother. I'm sure it's normal, but I just hate worrying so much. I want to be able to provide everything to my little boy and worry that I won't be able to.

20 week ultrasound pictures of my little man

I am so blessed to have this miracle. I never thought I could love someone so much. I cannot wait to meet the little guy.

We are having a ....

I knew it! We found out on February 3. It's so funny, but I just knew it. I think the first couple of weeks I thought it was a girl, but after about three weeks, I couldn't wrap my brain around having anything other than a boy. Isn't it crazy how maternal instinct really does exist? I even told Phil that if the ultrasound tech said "girl", I was going to fall off the exam table. Sure enough, after the first scan, it was so completely obvious. This little guy wasn't shy at all! Good thing we wanted to find out, otherwise, we would've anyways! The ultrasound was amazing. He was moving all over the place and at one point, he started sucking his thumb and holding his ear with the other hand. I didn't think I could fall in love with him any more than I already have, but I surely did that day. It's hard to believe that he is going to be here in like 17 weeks. This time is flying by. The worrying is starting to kick in for me: how will I know what I'm supposed to do with a newborn? What if I fail him? How can we afford this? What about daycare? The worrying goes on and on. It doesn't help that I wake up every few hours during the night to pee and then just start worrying when I try to fall back asleep. I know we'll figure everything out, but I internalize most things by nature, so why should pregnancy/baby worries be any different? Okay, well now I'll post fun ultrasound pictures of my little man!